2009 will be good

2008 has been a tough year for me, B and many others around me.

being new to the job and having to adjust to the new lifestyle was not easy at all.

i am glad that both B and i survived 2008. Looking back, i see God’s work in our lives, how He has performed so many miracles for both of us. During the darkest times when we thought we could never make it, when we tried and cant see the light of the end of the tunnel, He was there, clearing all obstacles and hurdles in our relationship. From 2008, i learnt to leave things to Him and not worry too much!

It’s 2009 and it’ll be an exciting year for me, other than work. Looking forward to preparation for our wedding, which is in 11 months’ time!

When the thought of work gets us down, i am trying my best to have a positive outlook.

1) many long weekends this year!

2) falling deeper in love with running, with B being my trainer!

3) baptism class and being baptized !

4) invitation cards designing and printing!

5) gown fitting and wedding shoot!

6) renovation of our room!

7) finalizing ideas for our wedding lunch!

8) our actual wedding!

9) our first xmas tog as a wedded couple!

10) our honeymoon =)

2009 will be a good year. i believe!

Published in: on January 1, 2009 at 10:38 pm Leave a Comment

him

i had a happy day.

B allowed me to sleep a lil more while he woke up on his own to go to school.

he came back to pick me for lunch and bought me little xmas presents.

he then sent me to meet Glad.

he loitered around on his own while waiting for me to be done.

he appeared the moment i called him to come and fetch me.

he was a happy driver and sent Glad home.

we went home to an unsatisfying dinner and he suggested that i meet my friends for supper.

he agreed to pick up joanne without hesistating.

we then went to geylang for supper.

he sent me home and we went jogging after 12 midnight.

we ran the whole estate without panting really hard.

he noticed that my new running shoes were stained with blood when i didnt even feel anything.

he took out my shoes and socks, and piggy-backed me up 3 storeys.

he helped me clean my wound and apply lotion.

there are so many reasons for me to love him.

Published in: on December 17, 2008 at 1:38 am Leave a Comment

小木马与圣诞宝贝

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Published in: on December 15, 2008 at 1:45 am Leave a Comment

对的人

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“These are the hands, young and strong and vibrant with love, that are holding yours on your wedding day, as he promises to love you all the days of his life.

These are the hands you will place with expectant joy against your stomach, until he too, feels his child stir within your womb.

These are the hands that look so large and clumsy, yet will be so gentle as he holds your baby for the first time.

These are the hands that will passionately love you and cherish you through the years, for a lifetime of happiness.

These are the hands that will countless times wipe the tears from your eyes: tears of sorrow and tears of joy.

These are the hands that will tenderly lift your chin and brush your cheek as they raise your face to look into his eyes: eyes that are filled completely with his overwhelming love and desire for you.

These are the hands, smooth, young, and carefree, that are holding yours on your wedding day, as she pledges her love and commitment to you all the days of her life.

These are the hands that will hold each child in tender love, soothing them through illness and hurts, supporting and encouraging them along the way, and knowing when it’s time to let go.

These are the hands that will massage tension from your neck and back in the evenings, after you’ve both had a long hard day.

These are the hands that will hold you tight as you struggle through difficult times.

They are the hands that will comfort you when you are sick or console you when you are grieving. These are the hands that will passionately love you and cherish you through the years, for a lifetime of happiness.

These are the hands that will hold you in joy and excitement and hope, each time she tells you that you are to have another child; that together you have created a new life.

Perhaps these are the hands that will comfort you when you are told you cannot have a child, and will convince you that together you will create new life in other ways.

These are the hands that will give you support as she encourages you to chase down your dreams. Together, as a team, everything you wish for can be realized.”

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可以让我依靠的他

可以让我这样紧紧抱着的他

可以让我捧腹大笑的他

就是

我的他

Published in: on December 14, 2008 at 3:03 am Leave a Comment

Christmas wishes!

Christmas bells are ringing!

i was asking B the other day: Should christmas presents be something practical/useful or something that someone really wants but not useful?

B said that ideally it should be both.

When we talk about christmas, we think of santa claus stuffing our dream christmas prezzies into red stockings… hence i told B, christmas present should be something that someone wishes to have, but cant bear to buy it because it is impractical to do so.after all, it’s someone’s WISH.

this year, i have a few WISHES, and i hope to fulfil one of them on my own. However, the devastating news of cut in bonus shattered my dream of rewarding myself for working for 1.5 yrs. =(

Nevertheless, let me share my dreams!

1) A Tiff & Co bracelet with charms like this?

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this is a super cute tiff & co classic gift box!

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charms to add on in the next few years…. errr… a pram ???

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or a cute little picnic basket!!!!!

2) A bag?

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Chloe????

or even a….

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PRADA?

anyway, B & i will be tightening our belts… no more spending this year, even for xmas.. =(

hence, dreams will always remain as dreams.. =(

perhaps, another mega wish is to wake up and find that my SOWs for next year are all done for me. i’ll be the happiest girl in the whole wide world.

DREAMS….

Published in: on December 10, 2008 at 12:21 am Leave a Comment

the run

as far as i could remember, i’ve never run more than 2.4 km in the entire 24 years of my life. Not to mention, my timing is horrendous.

i posed a challenge to myself yesterday. Before i turn 25, i want to fulfil my dream and this is the first step!

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B and i signed up for the Safari Zoo Run 2009! it’s a whole 6.2km and it seems almost impossible for my stamina now. B promised to train with me and i truly hope that i can accomplish this!

This is a small step towards fulfiling my dream of joining a half marathon next year or in the near future…

B says – impossible is nothing and nothing is impossible.

can i do it?

Published in: on December 9, 2008 at 12:03 pm Comments (2)

Engagement shoot at Ubin

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a very candid shot from our engagement shoot at ubin posted on our photographer’s blog..

i realized that i’m literally as white as sheet….

we’re still waiting for the rest of the pictures. =)

Published in: on November 20, 2008 at 11:59 pm Comments (5)

失眠

已经很久没有失眠了。

失眠的感觉,我又爱又恨。

爱,凌晨三点的宁静。

恨,因为耳边起伏不定的打呼声打扰了这种私人空间。

好久没有定下心来,把所想的,看的,经历的写下来。

这一年来,我的心是杂乱的,空空的。

越来越不认识自己。

这种感觉很恐怖。仿佛追不上光阴的脚步 - 我,落后了。

日子一天天地过去,我离自己越来越远。

更不清楚自己要什么,想什么。

理想很多,但是我已经不敢去想,不敢去奢望什么。

就这样,我被困在这肉眼看不到的监牢, 慢慢地,数着人生一点一滴的遗憾。

Published in: on November 11, 2008 at 2:35 am Comments (6)

this is fun!

saw pam’s handwriting analysis and hence i’ve decided to give it a try.

cant help but be amazed at the results… though some parts are not really that accurate.

Cecilia is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person’s shoes.   haha. this is accurate.

Cecilia will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. (this is so so so true). She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between ( i’ve always thought so! now i know i’m normal! i’m an AMBIVERT! ). Psychology calls Cecilia an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too “far out.” She doesn’t sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Cecilia is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. (expressive? hmm… i wonder if it’s true )

Cecilia is a “middle-of-the-roader,” politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn’t relate to any far out ideas and usually won’t go to the extreme on any issue. (yeah. i’m not a risk taker!)

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Cecilia doesn’t write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. (balanced ability. true, cos i do not really like to hang out with a large group, while i dont really mind small groups!)

Cecilia will demand respect (from my students, yes! ) and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Cecilia believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride. (i dont really think so… my esteem is too low to be prideful. )

Cecilia will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don’t really want her opinion, don’t ask for it! (it depends on the occasion… hey i major in PR ok! how can i be candid and direct! i think before i speak… but in front of friends, it’s another story… =)  )

Cecilia is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Cecilia learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won’t forget.

Cecilia is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate. ( i totally agree. i’m super slow in debate. )

She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other “less detailed” people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most. (woots! i love repetition! have i ever told you my ambition is to be a cashier, or a data entry worker… any job along these lines whereby i dun need to think so hard… n just use muscles memory.)

Cecilia is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. ( i’m. very practical indeed. )This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. (SO WRONG! )She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn’t necessarily mean things go as planned. Cecilia basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. ( THIS IS SO SO SO SO WRONG! )However, she sets her goals using practicality– not too “out of reach”. She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. ( yes, to a certain extent because i want to protect myself). A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average. (friends who know me will shake their heads at this point… )

Cecilia is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time. ( yeah, maybe this is right. time to reflect! )

Cecilia has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. (yeah, sometimes i trust people too easily.. ) She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer’s attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Cecilia has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Cecilia fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Cecilia has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Cecilia seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Cecilia seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. ( WAH… i’m stunned…). It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

Published in: on August 27, 2008 at 8:01 pm Comments (1)

shed some light, pls

despite how hard i tried to convince myself that my initial decision was right,

i have to admit it was wrong.

so wrong.

Published in: on August 25, 2008 at 11:20 pm Leave a Comment